Here we are in the last days of 2020, and while this year started very well. I did not end the way I had envisioned. Before March, I was obtaining my goals and feeling like I was making some real progress… Then when the shit hit the fan and got VERY real, I like 99 percent of everyone else spent a LOT of time doom scrolling. Instead of focusing on the things I COULD control, I focused on all the stuff that scared the crap out of me.
When I first thought I would do a year in review, I hesitate because, in my head, this whole year went to hell back in March. I am also the kind of person that sees everything in black or white. To better get a grip so I can make informed decisions about my 2021 Goals, I went back to 2020 goals, and I DID do a LOT better than I had thought..so yay!!
While the world outside was burning, I went through some deep healing. I am a very spiritual person, not in the traditional way people believe but much like Danielle Laporte, Pema Chaden, and others. I read their books, journaled, spoke with friends, and all of the new age vibe stuff, and it was intense while going through it. I felt so blocked that I couldn’t write or anything. I came out on the other side the first week in December, and I honestly felt like a million pounds of regret and rage had left me. I honestly did not think I did anything, and making me even sadder, I only read 32 books, and that number is ultra-low for me. I was looking up the goals that I saw in an Evernote file, and as I looked over each plan, I realized that I did have some good moments in 2020. my mantra this whole year was The night is long but Joy always comes in the morning.
Let’s take a look!
Learn how to cook healthy vegan food
Well, if you call Tone it Up meal plan cooking, then yes. Seriously if you are like me and you have been relying on Burger King for far too long, then Tone it Up is a GREAT place to start. The meals were sooooo easy to make. Most importantly, they were edible. I feel like I have the basic cooking skills, so now I want to branch out. I even bought a subscription to Plan to Eat to help me keep track of all my recipes.
keep up with my fitness routine
This I did do. I have been using the Tone it Up App. Now I am in the habit of working out every day for 2020. I used to go to a gym, but with COVID, I just use the Tone it up to App, and it is my favorite workout program of all. I just have to get my eating under control and track every bite with Noom.
Get back into the journaling habit
A big fat nope. That could be one big reason I felt so off-kilter this year. I had no real way to process the “outside” world events, and by the time I realized that no matter what happens, I WAS GONNA have to work to get my creativity back, I was far down the COVID rabbit hold, and the only thing that would help was to dig up my copy of The Artist Way
Support more bookish business
Well, I did buy a product from two Businesses at the tail end of 2020…
This Candle From Forage
The fully booked planner
I am planning on buying a LOOOT more stuff from the bookish community.
I now feel that it is best to support small independent shops because then you KNOW your money is genuinely helping while Down at Wal-mart, people are forced t stand up for 14 hours straight, among other things.
be intentional
Big fat nope again. I will admit that I have a huge problem of not following the plan I set out for myself. And since I was usually flying up my pants’ seat, that also meant this blog did not do anything in 2020. I am not even sure WHY I had such a hard time writing—for the first time in my adult years, writing anything felt like pulling teeth. A couple of weeks ago, I concluded that this damn virus is not going anywhere, and di need to find a way not to have anxiety attacks and just write.
Work On my sleep
Yep! I HATED my c-pap things and sent them back and worked hard to build a nightly routine, and it worked!!
Stop my shiny object Syndrome
This one was HARD. I have to confess I am a person that LOOOVES tech. I want every new app or gadget that comes out. I go by the adage that if it isn’t broke, don’t fix it. For me, that means be happy and content about what I DO have and stop trying new shit that does not really enhance my workflow at this point in time. I have spent the last couple of years perfecting my whole workflow, and I will keep telling myself it is ain’t broke, don’t fix it. I think my shiny object syndrome is what holds me back 95 percent o the time. It seems that I get a good flow of things done, then I see some new app or whatever, and I decide to start all over, and then after a few months, I do it all again.
be more involved in the bookish community
To be honest, I don’t think I was involved in ANY sort of comity this year. Maybe that why it felt like one big slog with me doomscrolling got hours and hours. I finally stopped when my anxiety was starting to get bad again. I must admit that all that doom scrolling ate into my reading blogging, but at least in 2021, I will get back to reading and blogging.
